The World of Kit Kat

oh yeah and I bloody well wish I could lock people away for slander, so far I would have 3 people behind bars...fucking idiots.

Edit - before people go crazy dat aint aimed at anyone on lj.

last nite was yet again utterly fantastic, lots of stupid shit was going down tho..I didn't get pished till the bar closed, 2 shots just pushed me over the edge...Jen had to wedge my foot outa my mouth a few times but it was funnie in the end...I kissed the boy again :)
:) and sent him home alone. go me!!!!

Tonite was one of thee best nites ave had ever! everything seemed different and am not sure why, I think its got something to do wi putting the past behind me :) I have made excellent mates that finally except me for who I am, you know who you are guys :) which means I can finally be who I am and I am loving it. Ya wanna know something am not even drunk I pritty much stayed sober, roll on tomorrow coz am gonna do it all over again!

I also met a really nice guy, I didn't kiss him till the end o the nite and I had no intentions of going home wit him...he's coming out tomor to see me again...so it really does work then...this whole not putting yourself out thing.

Lifes good.

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yep dats right...am well boiling up inside...people are so fucking PIGHEADED sometimes, I hate them.

I have decided to work ma butt off here and hand in my notice just after christmas, I should really do it now and leave them fucked for staff, ha ha, but nah I couldn't let the students down., they are the reason I AM still here.

On a good note had an appointment wi ma psychologist this lunch time I really like her...think she will help me out, I shall be starting CBT next session which I am totally looking forward to, she says it will be hard work tho but def 100% worth it.

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Little update coz its been ages!!!

I have finally been referred to a psychologist after waiting like a year, I have my next appointment on Monday, which is great, the lady I see is really nice. Turns out I have Social Anxiety and Depression(explains alot huh?) which puts my mind at ease knowing I can now get help, phew :D

Was round at Vicki's (doug's girlfriend) on Wednesday nite was really good fun, I got a little drunk and wanted to stay later but I had to go home early as I had work the next day, poo! Vicki's ace, Doug's done well *nods*

Last nite me and Baz went to see Snakes on the Plane it was bloody good, we just sat and giggled are asses off, altho there was a few things that made us both jump outa are skin, lol!!!

Cannie wait for tonite, not seen the crew in like ages, we are gonna make this a nite to remember *nods*

Am trying out this new thing where If I make an arrangement with someone I stick to it, no matter how anxious it makes me. I have burnt alot of bridges by being unreliable but least now I know why I was acting that way.

I hate fridays they always seem to drag :(


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tomorrow is ma birthday am gonna turn 23 argh!!!

you better all be coming out to celebrate me getting old...:D

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I have a life changing decision to make...thing is I don't know whether it will change for better or worse...people say the scariest decision is the right one.....so am thinking more and more each day to go for the scary one!!!!

Mucho love to you all x x x

Am off to see The Rocky Horror Picture Show at Edinburgh Playhouse in October its gonna rock like fuck my pretties!

p.s. anyone up for getting wasted wit me this friday??? (this girl needs to n I mite even buy ya a drink!!!)

I love the fact am always portrayed to be wrong, ha ha ha! I aint even the one who did any bitching am the one who missed out....funny how things turn out...seems to me like history repeating itself....am starting to think second chances should not be given no matter how genuine they seem....never again am I going to be taken for a mug, NEVER.

I am fed up rite now.

Fed up with people.

thats all...